I stopped wearing makeup daily because of the pandemic. Looking back, I realize that when I wore makeup in public, I was always thinking about how others perceived my appearance.
I like makeup as a tool for expressing yourself - but I would be lying if I said makeup is always, or even usually, used to express oneself.
During the first year of the pandemic (2020) I was reluctant to give up makeup. Putting on makeup - the physical act of painting myself - always makes me feel better.
I found that actually wearing makeup was a different experience than putting it on. As soon as I walked out of my room I couldn't stop thinking: what do others think of me?
I have been watching makeup tutorials and collecting makeup looks I want to try for years.
There are multiple ways for me to engage with makeup, though:
I always like when people describe makeup application as the act of painting your face.
I feel at peace when makeup application feels like art creation - looking at myself in the mirror and drawing on myself.
What if I explore only the painting aspect of makeup application, without involving my face in the process?
I still think about the ethical implications of neural style transfer sometimes - mostly the issue of attribution and credit.